The Town stopper talks after today's eventful 1-1 draw with Luton Town.
PENALTY hero James McKeown says that he loves the club and never wanted to leave.
Speaking to BBC Radio Humberside's John Tondeur, he said: "The last month has been tough. Like I said last week, I never want to leave this football club, I don't want to leave this football club.
"We've got two kids here at school, we've built a life here as a family. It wasn't something I did lightly, I did it for what I felt were the right reasons.
"This football club means a lot to me. I've been here a long time, I've stayed here when I probably didn't need to. I felt that it was the right decision. It's been the best part of my life being here, I never wanted it to end, but I felt for my career, for my family's sake, it's probably the best thing.
"Football's strange, I didn't go for whatever reason, and I'm still here. Like I said last week, the gaffer's been very honest with me, very respectful. He pulled me yesterday and we had a conversation, there's nothing personal, there's no hard feelings, I like him as a person."
"I think I was probably quite close to leaving. The deal wasn't right for the club, which I fully respect. I think it was close, but I don't think the deal could quite get done. I fell asleep Tuesday night, I woke up on Wednesday and you get on with it don't you.
"I had no intention of leaving on loan after Tuesday. I had every intention of staying this season and next season. I've got an opportunity to play games of football - now it's up to me. If I don't perform and I get dropped, that is down to me. I can't complain about that. Just give me the opportunity to play games."
Macca added: "Like I say, I love this club. I want us to do well, of course I want to do well for myself and my family. I want us to do well as a team."